This week the TMI Tuesday blog had a fun challenge. I accept. I was really excited about this particular TMI because I have often thought about writing out my story. I broke it up into lessons. I was going to write out the years, but they don’t describe the lessons as much. Some lessons had to go back and be repeated. I want to share my story because I know some of you can relate. This is just a fun little snippet.
If your life were a book, what would the parts or chapters be titled?
Chapter 1- The Abuse.
I wish it could start out happy. It didn’t so I can’t. My childhood was full of scars. Death and abuse marred my innocence. I learned not to rely on people to save me. I ran into a theme of loss and abuse over the years, but I eventually was able to break the cycle. This painful chapter would give you a clue about my survival.
Chapter 2- The Rebellion.
This is where I put my stubborn pride and things I did selfishly. I wanted to show the world I wasn’t afraid. This part of my life was also pretty painful but I learned more control. I hurt people who loved me but I also learned to be selfish enough to cut painful things out of my life. My shameful secrets would be here, some had no purpose.
Chapter 3- The Miracles.
These segments get a whole chapter because my whole world changed. My focus shifted from self preservation to self sacrifice. I dodged more than a few bullets in my life. I have witnessed miracles and some years I spent in complete awe of how close it was. My self-confidence came from here. Surprise that it could happen to me, and then again why not me?
Chapter 4- The Love.
I have loved foolishly and in marriage. I have loved without hope of reciprocation. I have loved faithfully and in secret. I have loved in sin. I can’t regret any of these because they proved that I am very capable and worthy of true love. I looked in all the wrong places. When I finally decided to set parameters I found someone worthy of the best and worst of me.
Chapter 5- Vindication.
I am a survivor. I have lived through good and bad things. I have overcome shame and self-doubt. Like a phoenix from the ashes I rise again and again. I have reached unimaginable goals. Actually, I have reached every goal I set for myself. Even surprising myself at times. I didn’t quit even when things quit on me. I am proud of the person I am and the freedom from my past I have achieved. I have every right to believe that the best is still yet to come!
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