KissinBlueKaren

I have so many questions that remain unanswered. After a live demonstration and some adventures into spanking and submission. I wanna delve further. But how far should I go? What kind of people enjoy this kind of stuff? Is it gonna turn my partner off completely?

I post these questions here, because some of you might be feeling the same way. I peek into the world of BDSM and so much about it appeals to me. I was so jealous of the girl on the St.Andrew’s Cross with the reddened ass from being whipped. The Master who held the whip captivated me. So cool and calm as he delivered the punishment. That punishment became her release and I so wanted to be her! I envision this for Miguel. This is a role he could easily slip into. We purchased out first paddle this year. Now I am looking into whips and I feel like I want to really go there! Does that sound terrible, or terribly scary?

As I explore more, less is shocking to me. The first time I heard about a person getting off on pain, I was so turned off by it. Pain and pleasure together didn’t make any sense to me. Now I just want my hair pulled as I get fucked. I want the red marks and sore spots that remind me we played rough last night. I want my punishment for every bratty thing and annoyance I have cause Miguel. I want it and this is what really turns me on. Am I getting jaded or have I been like this all along and just too prude and proud to admit it? I like being ordered around, I don’t want to have control. I want to just let go and enjoy the safety net of someone who loves me and has all the control. Yet, my aggressive personality will not let go. I want to choose. Is it all or nothing? Gawd, I hope not!

We are looking into local clubs where I can exploit this new fascination. I am almost afraid of what we will find. So this is our new mission, to go and see for ourselves.

Been there, done that? Leave me a comment, tell me about it….